How long does it take for this crippling fear of “oh god did any of my patients die over night?”to go away?
The right side of my neck/ jaw is super sore and painful.
Pain quality/radiation/intensity? Anything making it worse/better? Slow or sudden onset? Recent activities? Any swelling? Recent illnesses/surgeries? Any history of muscle issues? Salivation okay?
I would say 5/10 intermittent, radiating down my neck and into my jaw like an inch either way. Slightly swollen lymph node beneath jaw. Chewing/talking makes it worse (soooo obviously I’m chewing gum at work.. heh) sudden onset yesterday afternoon. Recent activities include lots of football and beer. No recent illnesses. No muscle issues. Still salivating, especially when watching the Biggest Loser contestants during a temptation challenge….
But at least my new stethoscope got here, so I can stop using one of the shitty isolation ones.
Baby blue Littmann.
So my Dad is making me get rid of the cat.
And okay, so he has a point - she’s not a cuddly cat, she almost never leaves the kitchen. For some reason she won’t use the litterbox even though I KNOW she knows how. But she’s sick and old and she’s not mean, she doesn’t bite or scratch.
I’ve only had her a week. And usually I’m relatively adaptable to change. But I feel like right now there is no stability in my life. Every single time I try to do something, something goes wrong. Every time I try to meet up with someone, they change it at the last minute. And so this is just bothering me to a point where I am irrationally upset.
To top it off, work is getting stressful. No, we don’t have any ebola patients here in CT, but we keep getting emails from our CEO / president about how prepared the hospital is for a potential outbreak.
No one has received any training. We have not received any information on where these amazing isolation suits are. We have no idea how to handle an ebola patient. Where would we put their dirty linens? Where would we throw all of the garbage? What are the protocols for a patient being diagnosed with ebola in the ED? Because our emergency room nurses are absolute SHIT at maintaining precautions. We constantly receive droplet patients without a mask on. I received a MRSA+ patient yesterday and no one was wearing a gown. We had a meningitis patient spend 4 hours in the hallway one night, only to be put into a semiprivate room.
And to be honest my hospital may never see an ebola patient, chances are most of them will go to Yale and we will get a lot of patients who otherwise would be down in New Haven. But still.